Life is truly full of surprises. Not long ago I was mourning the loss of my job, and before that I was heartbroken at returning to work (and it was the same job!).
And now this roller coaster called life has handed me something really quite wonderful. Part time work. Work that I can do at home two days a week. Perfect huh.
What I didn’t expect to happen when I accepted this part time work was that I would feel so much better about myself. I feel valued… for my intellect… for my knowledge… because I can do this.
I had no idea that so much of my self worth was wrapped up in my career. And really, there is nothing wrong with that… I have worked hard… And feeling this way about my work does not detract from how I feel about myself as a mother (processing all the emotions here!).
I’m actually a little worried about writing about this here, because I don’t want to jinx myself! (My ‘intelligence’ doesn’t stop superstitions it would seem!).
And we are now settling into our new rhythm. Thankfully it has been a very gentle transition for the kids since a lovely friend comes here to look after them one day, and their nana-ma looks after them the other day. In our home, where I can still help if needed, where I can still breastfeed my little one to sleep. Where I can still hear them play outside *happy sigh*
I feel really rather blessed. And I thank the universe (I’m ‘taking blessed back’)
Warmly, Kelly
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